moving
from tomorrow on, i will be located here.
i will be tagging people's blogs to let them know of the change. update your links!
...haix.
just back from tj where we had first band prac(not counting tune in).. honestly, i have to admit that i played very, very horribly. every time i was faced with running notes, i slipped back into Eb fingering.
what, didn't i say i was playing the Bb? haix..
okay anyway. had combine first thing.. think sectionals would be quite gan ga.. cos like lianwei and terence(the tkss tubist) are like good friends.. then the whatshisname wan something from dunnowhere always sticking with the bass eupho(there's such a thing?!) and that leaves me and mag.. and we've known each other for four years. oh so fun. yea.. the pieces we have are somewhat... challenging.
...for the first time in my life i'm assigned a solo part in 'impressions of japan'. and i just had to screw it up. oh well done nat. fine! i suck, okay? seriously think there's sth wrong with me.. mag was complaining too during lunch. but i really like the sax solos.
ohwell. nat stop being an idiot. there's three and a half hours to prom. go get ready and stop thinking about this shit. go.
and stop crying.
oh, a little something and nothing. coincides with what sali told me about someone not knowing what ___'s missing. =)
B:
Your Beauty lies
in Plain Sight. Plain, simple and the girl next
door. People tend overlook you as you are the
"normal girl", but you're actually
very beautiful. And you have plenty about you to
set you apart, but more that
lets you blend. People love the stability you have
because as others may come
and go, you will always be there and you may always
be the same. You like simple
things and that's what people like about you. You
most likely enjoy things most
consider normal, like movies, shopping, that sort
of thing and are very friendly
and probably have many friends. You are sweet and
kind and that shows on you,
but you're also strong and not very naive. You're a
rather well-rounded
individual. Even though some people pass you off as
just another girl, shrug it
off because they don't know what they're
missing.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Earth, Light Animal: Cat Color:
Pinks, Blues, Browns Song:
Girl Next Door by Pilot Expression: Simple
Smile
Gemstone:
Alexandrite Mythological Creature: Fox
Demon, Hobbit Sign:
Tauros Planet: Jupiter Hair Color:
Light Brown Eye Color:
Brown
Quote:
"To the world you may be one person, but to
one person you may be the world."
Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
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Thursday, November 25, 2004
i choose to cry
tears i never knew existed now make their presence known.
i've never cried for anyone, never. but now i'm crying for you. and for this ache in me that might never go away.
oh, i know i said it'll all be over. but somehow i can't keep that promise. because i can never look at you and not think of what might have been. because i'll never know, it hurts. because you were never there, it hurts. because you left a part of me feeling so, so empty, it hurts.
and now i cry for you. i cry for you, and for myself.
sometimes i feel so helpless. so useless. so foolish.
i don't know why i subject myself to all this. but these tears won't stop once they've started.
can't you see? i'm crying for you.
you don't know how much i miss you. how much i just need you to be there and tell me everything would be all right. how much i just need to see you smile at me, laugh with me. comfort me.
it has never occured to you that this is cutting me so deep, has it?
someone tell me why i put up with this.
the wound is so deep, it'll probably never heal.
i may look nonchalant, but inside is an open cut that bleeds freely. a masquerade i am finding hard to keep up.
sometimes, i can't even bring myself to even talk to you. i only gaze at you from afar. but i don't think you notice.
and what for?
i cry for you.
you don't see the tears. you don't see the pain. you don't see me.
i chose this path, and now i walk it. tears.. they are the only company i have left on this long and dusty path.
when will you come back?
i cry for you.
really i do.
* s w e e t heart`x @ [[7:31 PM]]
done.
okay. i'm moving here.
it's not ready yet so don't anyhow go clickety.
yesterday was fun =)
gotta run. love ya peeps.
gambadeh jie!! =)
* s w e e t heart`x @ [[9:55 AM]]
Saturday, November 20, 2004
two
two more days to total liberation. total liberation i say!! =
ooh the da vinci code. don't believe everything you read. =\ yeaaah. it's really kinda cool. and a little confusing. hmm.
yes yes yes one more paper and it'll all be over!!
trying to convince michelle to watch shutter with me and grace.actually we wanted to watch dollmaster. but i don't think it's showing anymore. anyway two people watch horror movie no fun wat. so i asked rahh and lookit. haix. why is everyone going somewhere cool this holidays? i may not even be going anywhere. gah.
my mum's friend popped by a couple of hours ago. (her two twin sons are my primary school classmates. needless to say they're both smarter than me) apparently she's worried that one of them won't get into temasek with 13 points. -_-; er hello? i got 19 lah. argh. the best thing? she said 'lao da gen lao er hui zai temasek den ni'. uh.. okay thanks? okaaaaay. i haven't seen them since i was. i dunno. thirteen? yea okay. sure. right.
yes. i'm already making plans for monday, tuesday, and saturday. all that's left is thursday, and... monday. =)
two~~~~~~~~~~~! hahah watch out i'm going crazy.
OLINDA YOU ARE STILL MY IDOL. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY IDOL.. GREAT JOB GIRL~!
heh. yes. i can't believe that syl's fanbase pulled through.. hello he can't sing la.. all he can do is stand there and smile. and he's not even that good-looking either. i mean seriously lah. he has no dress sense.. his hair looks like a plant wilted or sth, falling all over his face. and huifang was screaming vulgarities at me over sms. hey it's not my fault!! at least taufik's good. olindaaaaaa~! hahah.. yes. i shall stop ranting now.
lalala. physics here i come. i think.
like i said. i shall stop ranting now.
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Sunday, November 14, 2004
eight.
i've made a post-exam timetable(and then realised how many free days i have.. everything's centered around the first week of holidays.). i've made my self a little countdown to the last paper(science1) and it's screaming a huge orange 8 that i will strike out before i sleep. =) yes. i'm reaching the end of it all. finally. i've made arrangements with grace. looking forward to the beach trip. i have many concerts lined up(i'm watching, not playing.. hahah) and many outings. many events. and yet my calander manages to look empty.
i have fifteen minutes left.
i can not wait for the exams to be over. finally, to be able to slack.
okay i'm definately moving. where to will be confirmed at a later date.. =) okay okay.
gotta run =)
EIGHT MORE DAYS! GO NAT~!
* s w e e t heart`x @ [[5:53 PM]]
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
12
12 more days. 12 more days. two of which are public holidays. and four of which are weekends. and two of which have no papers. i have bio(that's in an hour's time) history geog paper2 amath paper2 and science paper1 left go me.
ahhhh. i think i've got bio nailed. hope the paper1's difficult and paper2 easy. hope hope hope. pray~. ahhh.. uh well at least i can (somewhat) do plants and (sort of) reproduction in mammals and plants and inheritence and and and transport in mammals. i think i've got that. and something on microorganisms. oooohhhh.. lucky i have guanyu's bio text.(guanyu next day i got money maybe i buy u lunch hor thanks =)) haha.. uh! oh and i think this will be a little too late for sec 4s who read this, but in the june paper there was a question regarding reduction division in plants and that refers to meiosis. yupx.. thanks to ms yong!! i think kor's busy.. tried to contact him but he never reply at all.. yes. bio bio bio bio~~! uhm yes!! i have to go gramercy to see score for net. if i remember >_< my memory sucks.. hah. anyways.
got guanyu to give me lianwei's number.. asked him abt the tune in and stuff.. yupx.. then he asked me abt the tuba that i use heh. =) me -heart- tuba. ooh transport in mammals. lubdub. lubdub. haha..
it's kinda warm in the com lab, but that's fine.. raining like crazy outside tho.. or it was raining like crazy just now. tsk noisy people. gonna call nat later.. dunno which orchestra performing tonight, there's a tuba concerto and I WANT TO GO darn. hahah.. so later i'm gonna call nat and listen to the concerto over the phone so fun. =) tuba rocks yeaa.. hahah..
oh finally the forums loaded.. =) i have so many plans. yay~!
say it with me: twelve days to go.
let's put in everything for the final days~! go sec4s!! =)
i can do it.. i can do it.. i can do it.. i can do it.. i think.
go me. =)
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Tuesday, November 09, 2004
inspiration
oh no. daisy wants me to study bio. =)
meh. mep in a while. i don't really.. no wait i do.
who cares that bush won?! oops that didn't come out right.. but i'm a kerry supporter. okay okay. so america will be subjected to bush for another four years. big deal.
yes i know that i don't care. i can't be in the least bothered about politics, not even in singapore. so there.
i'm itching to toy around with the digital camera my dad's letting me borrow. i want grace to be my.. model. you know. model. hahah.. pretty gal sitting on the beach looking forlorn, maybe tracing out a heart in the sand, wind whipping through her hair as she gazes out at some faraway spot on the horizon, lost in a daydream.. innocent look, face flushed.. typical prettygirl =) go gracie!! hahah.. yup. actually i wanted to ask michelle. but. hahah.. maybe we'll try taking one of her at a high-rise building setting. i think that'll actually capture singapore's concrete jungle quite well. took a few photos of raisin(the oversized rodent) and think that the one nic took's really pretty.
i didn't know i was so into photography. amatureish, i'm sure, but nonetheless. but i like to think of photography as an.. art. okay it is an art. but still. to capture the perfect harmony of colours, lights, effects.. yeah sounds like composing for an orchestra. and you have to have the right subject. i haven't seen grace for a while, but i'm sure she's grown prettier.. hahah. anyway.. based on what i remember of her she's gonne do really really well. dark hair, kinda pale face, glasses. yes glasses. =) somehow i feel that glasses is what ties everything together for her. she's a dreamer, like me, only way prettier.. hahah. anyway i'm sure she'll be perfect. =)
13 more days to the end of o levels!! everyone say it with me: thirteen!!! hahah.. can't wait for it to be over.
like i told ms ee, i have many post-exam plans. there's prom, and we're gonna dress xinxian up for that.. knowing that vera'll be around means it'll be a crazy affair.. =) and then there's staying at nat's place. and then there's singapore idol finals!! actually i wanna get the tickets through nusso but. well. and then there's the syo concert where lookit'll get his suprise(oi guanyu are you still doing this or not~!).. and there's the tj tune-in and performance. and and and. i wanna go shopping with ms ee again!!!! =) then there's michelle and natalie and huifang's birthdays, and bbq at huifang's.. and lots of other things. i wanna get back into my hobby.. i wanna go back to school once in a while just to watch my jrs practice.. i wanna hang out with all my friends and teachers. and i also wanna learn the oboe from nat.
i have a really great relationship with ms ee. =) it's kinda fun to be able to talk to a teacher without inhibitions. without having to watch your words.. of course, my relationship with nat's better =)) hahah.. yes. dear jiejie, if you like him just admit lahh~! hahah.. anyway i think i should be able to go watch the sembawang winds concert wif you next year x) watch that whatshisname conduct right. hahah.. =)
thinking of moving. will confirm this later.
as i have said before.. i'm a dreamer. and this dreamer's gonna dream really, really big. watch out, here i come! =)
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Monday, November 08, 2004
overdue and stale.
i know this is seriously overdue. seriously. not as overdue as that library book i was supposed to return ages ago. but overdue. this is the ranting that has been accumulated over the past week. yes thankyouverymuch.
studying at the library with michelle, i realise that i have to go study my mep asap. not only because the paper is tomorrow. i must also remember that 'melisma' is that crazy thing that people do when the alternate between close pitches. or something. i have no idea. so i must study.
i must learn the diff between recitative and aria. i must learn the diff between symphony and concerto.
i must learn everything by tomorrow.
which is why i say i'm terribly not cut out to do mep. i'm still struggling whether i should/should not take mep as a subject in jc, since i can't compose to save my life. and neither can i come up with comprehensive essays either. perhaps it was just because i was doing vietnam and my essay happened to sound like something out of a textbook on vietnam. but. i really should rethink my motives for taking mep. and everything.
tj tune-in is on 24th. i have to ask if we have to bring our own instruments. or if i can go late/skip briefing for first three months(i think that's quite impossible, mrs loe stressed that it's compulsory). or if i will be able to make it because mag and fang are going too.
i have nothing against playing with my batchmates for the tune-in. in fact, i really would like to play with them in the upcoming concert. if we were going to be a part of it, that is. i hope we would.
yes i know this is starting to get boring.
emath 1 was an insult to our intelligence. i've said it once and i'll say it many more times before i let it go. emath two(today) was slightly better and i think that they might mod up the grades once they're through with marking.
looking forward to amath. anyways.
a lot of people are talking about missing their friends from their various levels. sec4s, jc2s.. everywhere it's the same thing. and(while michelle bugs me) i shall take what she once told me into consideration.
'it is not the end of the road. i refuse to believe it so. i will not thank you for being my best friend(what?! i have to thank you for that?!). we are very close friends and i know that we will have many more good memories together.'
and guess what? the crazy thing is that, i believe her. no matter where we're going.. michelle to vj, huifang and xinxian to nanyang, xuemin to lasaille, vera to serengoon and me to(hopefully) tj, i know we shall all remain very close friends..
even though we will never share recesses.. even though we won't be able to bitch about teachers we all know.. even though we may not be able to share lesson notes.. even though we won't see each other every day.. even though we won't be able to tease each other anymore.. even though we won't be able to.. well, a lot of things.. even though we may have new friends.. and even though we may not remember each other.. especially during exam periods.. i know that there'll always be a special place in my heart, a special memory, dedicated to the fact that you five have walked into my life and changed it..
..haix. =\ i'm getting too old for this.
i'm thinking about moving. will let you know when i actually get around to doing that.
and now i'm actually getting around to studying chem.
and since my parent are gonna find out anyway, nat asked me to stay at her place yay. and no, her parents will not be home and the two jack russles will take good care of us. =)
i have big plans.. and guanyu said: DREAM BIG!!
i'm a dreamer.
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