Saturday, June 19, 2004band
something's happened to my links. i don't know what. and i don't know how. but i've gotta get to crystal glaciers. and preferably seen. i know i can access it. from mv. but i don't wanna risk ie hanging. especially since. i'm using my cousin's computer at the moment. right now i'm talking to ms yong and anton. anton's thinking of starting a blog. and i shall help him. as much as i can.
today's band practice was okay. i mean. at least ms sia has stopped picking on me. even though she still has a tendency to stare at me for some reason or other. and apparently. she's been reading the sax blogs. and oh no i just asked sylvia to link me. no no no no no. hahah. anyway. i don't thinkthere's anything offensive here. directed to anyone. except wen-bin. but anyway. what can he do to me.
huiping was generally acting insane today. i think she had some great thing happen over the week but she was just spouting nonsense. something about candice rebonding her hair. i believe. that my secton is more interesting than yellow's half-octopi at speed. anyway. my section. seems to get totally hyper. after lunch. for me it's the sugar. for the rest. it's still unexplained. some sort of phenonemen or something. anyway. so we played all the pop songs today. and they scratched carmen fantasy off the rep list. why. i love that song. it's so nice lo. i mean. they should take out jap graf. and put in final fantasy yay. but whatever. i'm not the one who decides. so i should. at least. get the liberty of complaining. anyway. so during sombine. ms sia was going thru jap graf i think. or was it american graf. i can't remember. but we were playnig with e soloists. and then ms sia was like. ok. again. and again. like ugh. then she said 'now with tuba'. like hello. we were already playing. so like. yeah we are almose like so not there. underappreciated. gah.
i saw him today. for some crazy unexplained reason. near school. during lunch. what was he doing there? anyway. he was walking in my direction. i know he saw me. cos there was eye contacet. to a certain extent.but when i waved at him. he totally ignored me. he was talking to someone else. one of our.. friends. i suppose you can call her that. even though i don't know her that well. but i know her face. seen her around quite a bit. so what. because he's talking to her. means he can't say hi to me? does he hate me that much that he ignores me all the time? i can't stand it. i mean. i like him. blah so what. to him it means nothing. because he totally treats me as if i'm not there. it's not fair. i want to be the one who walks next to him. jokes with him. talks to him. it's so infuriating to like someone and yet not be seen!!!
i don't want to think of you anymore. but it's so hard not to.
* s w e e t heart`x @ [[9:39 PM]]