Friday, June 18, 2004love
sad is when you love someone. and they don't love you back. maybe cos they have other people. but still. deep inside. you love them. but not being able to be with them. there's an ache deep in my heart. cos there's someone i love. or like. at any rate. but i cannot be with him. it cuts so deep. to think maybe be likes another. i know i have to get over it. stop brooding over it. but i can't help it. almost all i think about. other than how i'm supposed to complete my homework and revision on time. is him. but. he doesn't see me. online. we talk like we're old buddies. but face to face. there's nothing between us. nothing at all. and it hurts a lot. to see the way he ignores me. when i pass him in the halls. i try to say hi to him. but he simply passes me by. as if i wasn't there. invisible. non-existant. it cuts deep. he just goes along his merry way. not seeing me. and i can only hide the pain. because i like him. but he doesn't know. and i don't think. i can tell him. because of the circumstances under which. we became friends. or are we even friends? because the way you treat me. is different from the way you treat other people. i envy those. who can joke with you. talk to you. i want to be able to do that. but something's stopping me. and it's you. because you don't seem to want to talk to me at all. perhaps it's the circumstances. i don't know. if we hadn't become friends. the way we had. would you be more open to me? so many possibilities. but i'll never know the answer. i'll never know why you treat me like i'm not here. because you don't talk to me. but i still like you. for some crazy reason. and i hope. one day. we can be together. but it takes two. to make dreams come true. i need you.
love is a leap of faith -ripped from chelsea. love you dearie.
* s w e e t heart`x @ [[10:52 AM]]