Saturday, June 26, 2004wanted to
"I just wanted to tell you that from afar, I've admired you for so long. I've observed you in class, during meals and during study periods. I really want to get to know you better and I resent the fact that our society forbids us from doing so. I may sound like a coward for allowing others to dictate my life, but yet at the same time I don't want to make you lose whatever you hold dear because of me. I'm not that selfish. Even though the alternative is continuing watching you from afar, pretending to not care.
I've seen how the cruel tongues of people have destroyed lives of those who were brave enough to risk it all for that emotion love. I don't profess to love you and I really don't. But not even giving myself a chance is hurting, alot. I hope that someday, when the rules change, I will be able to look you in the eye and tell you that I'm attracted to you and from there develop our relationship into something more. For now, this will have to do."
from hoi shan's blog i think. and at the bottom:
[he threw the letter into the fireplace]
what is it when men? shall not digress into that. because i can write a whole essay on that. and not be finished.
today. band. ms sia treat us ice cream. ^^ not only my section.. thw whole band!! yay rich ms sia = good ms sia. erm maybe not. hahah cos there are her moods! ok shall not go into that either.
guanz's blog layout. oh my god don't know what she was thinking!! loo kit's face on her blog.. omg. i think must stay away from there before i die from overexposure to that childish person. hahah he like wun grow up or sth lo.. hahah
weeling mad today ar! whole day go 'weeeeeeeee' for no reason. so me and mag behind say 'liiiiiiiing'. her name wat. hahah lame rite. the band overall playing improved. a little bit la. hahah. erm. wat else.
was telling pingz about the orchestra thing. then she was asking me abt yao cong. then she was like. 'got shuai ge next to you leh.. must get to know him better' and i was like erm no thankz man.. hahah.. then she ask me he got gerfren already? like how am i supposed to noe? then i ask loo kit for her.. then he said 'ur junior wan to noe or you wan to noe?' like please la. i'm not dat despo. then he said 'shld be dun have la..' so i told pingz and she said 'nutty must jia you' like what the hell? then told loo kit abt it and he was like 'hahah go for it!' eh please la. i not despo okae.. anywayz.. he always nv bring his scores one.. dun wanna be 'responsible' for him okae?
sighz.. bein misunderstood. >_<
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