Saturday, October 09, 2004
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i'm being an idiot lalala.

three days ago: happy birthday yuqin!!
two days ago: happy birthday vera!!
yesterday: happy birthday luther!!
today: happy birthday me!!

=) october is the month for birthdays.. hahah =)

my l1r5 exploded. 22. and amazingly enough that includes my chinese. yes that horrible subject i didn't think i'd do well(sort of) for. uh huh. so my l1r5 is saaaad. i don't get it larh.

i know i didn't study. i didn't study too hard anyway. my math was supposed to be a guaranteed a1 subject.

so let's take stock. what the ******* **** happened to my amath?!

i got an a2 for amath this prelims. i suppose this teaches me not to be too complacent(bah). i totally screwed my a1. ok actually i didn't. but it feels horrible. i mean. you know that -this subject-'s gonna give you an a1. and when it comes back you get an a2 and have to rely on school moderation to get your a1. worse is that you've scored 74%. just one measely mark off the a1 scale. feeling sucks. it like suddenly your supposedly a1 subject ain't a1 anymore. you gotta rely on other stuff to pull you up. it's crap. feels like you've been hit by a sledgehammer or something.

life's full of 'could have's. i mean.

i could have gotten an a1 for amath.
i could have studied harder.
i could have passed geog(******* 2 marks..)
i could have this. i could have that. ahh. whatever.

my math is dying. with a score like that how do i expect to get into tj? wake up nat.. >_<

i asked ms sim if it was possible to get into tj through band with an l1r5 of 22. she said it was possible but i had to go through yao cong/lian wei/whoever is the tuba sl down at tj. because of auditions. apparently the sl is the one who audis the students. so okay. but i 1) don't know lian wei(and more likely than not he's the sl) and 2) am not very close to yao cong. i mean. i sms also no reply so. he probably forgot who i am liaoz. so. what is a gal to do?!

ms sim also said she'd try to talk to hergoodfriend ms chiu(sp?!) for me. or rather just mention me. but okay la. at least i got some help.. i really wanna get into tj. argh.

anyway. i'm sixteen today! it's supposed to be a happy day. please don't fight anymore =
and i don't steal codes its unethical. fullstop.

lalala.. haix.

nat stop dreaming. dreaming won't help kay. DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! like go study tralala. i've decided on what subs i wanna concentrate on and use for o's. eng\emath\amath\mep\science\bio(if i have to.. kor help!!). and i know what i wanna do in jc as well.

man i'm thinking hard about it. i'm actually thinking hard about something.

well yes. this concerns my future thankyouverymuch.

there is still the question of whether the school's moderating any of the subjects i need.. please mod. =)


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